As a child, I somehow anticipated life to be the way I wanted it to be. I created my own little world. Unfortunately, I was just naive. As I got older, I noticed that life isn’t all that rosy. I didn’t get what I yearned for. But my parents gave me all they could and for that, I am grateful. Starting school, learners were divided into three classes, I call them social classes. The rich, middle class and the deprived. As some feasted on scrambled eggs and toasted bread, with freshly made juice or soda, for others, porridge was the order of the day. As a child, your happiness is more in material things. Now that I am an adult, very small things excite me. Being healthy is everything. Do you ever take a moment to celebrate each and every single day? Well, I do. Okay, I didn’t always do so, it started the day I visited the hospital to check on patients about seven years ago. I am emotional and that moment still lingers in my mind. I was in the ‘burns ward’. People were in pain and it made me very sad and grateful at the same time. I have learned to reward myself. Yes, I know the sound of that. But when I make effort, I buy something new. I give myself treats. As others are waiting on others to spoil them, I spoil myself. If a friend did it for me, that’s okay. But I am not sitting there waiting for someone to do that for me. I am going the extra mile to make myself happy, in all ways. Content comes with inner peace, not money. Many rich people are not happy. You can quote me on this, money is necessary, everyone longs for financial stability, but it’s not all that matters. There is more to life. These are the things that brighten my spirit. I love serving others. Just sharing the little I have with the people I love, sometimes even with strangers. My past doesn’t define me. Poor decisions affected me in the past, but I grew up, and when I look back, I am glad that I got through that. I am stronger and happier. I have learned to let go of the things that I can’t have, and hold on to what I have, for now. I have cut off things and people that bring negative energy. If you are the kind of person that always thinks I can’t prosper or mount to anything, well, ‘goodbye’. I would rather stay away from such. At this point, I should probably be married or even have children, but I guess it is not my turn yet. The rate at which time flies after 25. But I am forever 16, always. I am still waiting on God for a miracle. Do I need intersession? I don’t think so. I guess Prince Charming is somewhere, he might even be reading this. So, don’t expect me to settle. I have met people that talk about dating and settling down yet they haven’t even discovered themselves. Has being single ever killed anyone? Then let me be. Its peaceful here, no arguments, no stress and no drama. Nothing. But I still believe in true love, and a knight in shining armour. I have heard young ladies trying to find purpose in life through dating. But if you’re not content, a man won’t make you happy. It starts from within. Also, comparison is the thief of happiness. Comparison isn’t in my vocabulary anymore, I have accepted that some people will be healthier, richer, prettier, and much more. I have accepted the fact that I am not the best, which is okay. Forgiveness relieves my heart, so when people hurt me, I make it a point to forgive, just for my own good. I don’t have everything, but I am content.
