One of the tough things about being a first time parent is that you have no experience as backup.

I thought that I had figured out exactly where I was taking Kwezi to school based on what I had seen but now I am not very sure. The school I had chosen was expensive but it was within what I have always liked in a school.

One month before school kicks off, I have nagging doubts. Is this the right choice? Is it good enough? Why should I pay that much and worry about how Kwezi will get home since I have no car, when I can pay less in a good school and  have her picked up and dropped off on a school bus? The questions rolled and rolled on in my head.

Just a month ago, I was here telling you that I had settled on the school and that I was satisfied with it but I don’t think so anymore. In fact, the possibility of me choosing that school now hangs in balance because all the odds are pointing at it.

I need to put Kwezi in a school where I am not going to worry about extra expenses like cab fare. I need a school that is not very far from where I live so that when I can’t pick her from school, her nanny can jump on a taxi moto and pick her, or where a bus can save everyone the hassle and pick and drop her off.

I need a school where I am comfortable that she can alternate between spending afternoons at schools and at home without making me feel like I have to rob a bank. I need her to have choices and so, I have started the process again.

I will be visiting another school this Friday because it falls within the budget and the ideas that I have for Kwezi. I will also be visiting because it’s ridiculous to settle on the first school that you find without checking out what others have to offer.

Whether I like it or not, besides a good education, there are many other factors that come into taking a child to school and it is laughable that just a few months ago, they looked easy to navigate but as her time to begin comes close, everything seems to be larger than life and also really urgent.

Like I said in the beginning, as someone raising a child singlehandedly, I have to make decisions on my own almost all the time and if I make a mistake or change my mind, that is alright, after all, this is a team of two and one is three years old. But as usual, we shall overcome.